so my mom was in her room, complaining about me not doing anything for the upcoming mother’s day.

and i, frustrated, yelled back that i sent her flowers like last year or the year before and she said that it was a waste of money so why should i even do anything this year?

my brother already got her two bracelets for her birthday on May 3rd and sneakily sent her those edible fruit flower baskets to her workplace. and I told her that I wanted to get her a necklace and she already said no, i have enough of necklaces already. so wtf should i do now?

then she said “oh it couldn’t have been last year. and i said that because you were young and didnt have money.”

then i just locked my door and started crying before i explode and yell at her unreasonably.

wth. i barely got debit cards senior year, and i remember ordering flowers for her online, so it most likely had been last year. and i still don’t have any money now.

ef. i can’t cook or clean. but when i do, she’s always complaining about my methods of doing so and how slow i am or retarded. and since i’m a crybaby and lazy as ef, it just gives her more things to complain about.

when i’m helping her cook and dont know how to do something cuz she never showed me how to do it, she’ll just mutter something under her breath or straight out say that i’m stupid and slow and eventually do the task herself.

it’s not like i dont wanna give her anything. i know she’s just happy with whatever we give to her. it’s just what else can i do? clothes shopping? yeah i dont know her size/style. jewelry? she has enough already. dinner? we’re eating at my grandpa’s house. flowers? dont wanna. arts&crafts? time-consuming.

since i dont have anything for her, i’m starting to think mother’s day is a stupid holiday. shouldn’t we show our appreciation for our moms everyday or every now and then? or at least there shouldn’t be just one specific day of the year that we have to show our appreciation.

idk about you guys, but almost every day, i at least hug my mom and say i love you to her and eat dinner with her. i thought that was enough, but i guess not.

my mom told me to make a copy of a cd on chinese exercise movements for my aunt and to have it done by today.

using a program on my laptop for the first time, i quickly copied the files and burned them to a blank cd. didnt test it out and gave it to my mom.

later at night, after she visited my aunt to deliver the cd, she tells me, "oh they couldnt play the cd. your cousins tried different computers and it didnt work."

of course i was like wtf?  it didnt work?

so i placed it in the cd thing in my laptop, pressed play, and it worked...

then i started thinking, maybe it's cuz my cousins are fobs? they've only been in the US for about 6 years. but i'm pretty sure they're computer-savvy and know how to play a cd on the computer.

so i tried to play the cd on the dvd player that's hooked to the tv. the cd still works.

so then why couldn't my cousins play it on their computers. you'd think that two heads are better than one and they could've figured out a way to play the cd. and they used different computers.

hmm..unless they didnt click the right thing or something, or their computers are retarded, or the files on the cd is in a certain format that their computers couldnt read...or possibly they inserted the cd upside down...

so i killed a moth a couple hours ago, in the afternoon, and now ants are all over it.

somehow they found a way to sneak into the room. probably came from a hole or the window.

and they're really small and red-ish, brown-ish. smaller than the regular black ants. makes it hard to see them. especially since i have wood floors.

it's gonna get even hotter later on since summer's coming. that means i have to be careful, clean, and stop eating in my room.

ugh. now i HAVE to clean my room.

yuck.